My Brother As He Is

I would see my brother as he is. I would know the world I see I made up, a way of projecting harsh judgment on myself because I cannot bear to hold it inside. I fear it will utterly destroy me.

When I see my brother as he is, I can forgive him for what he never did. I made an idol of my brother because I thought I needed something to attack. I believed attack could be justified based upon my being innocent by my brother's guilt.

But there is nothing outside me. I am doing this. My brother is part of me. Would I deliberately do violence to myself? What I do to my brother I do to myself.